Don don day

Huhhh. I'm exhausted today and i can't seem to see the reason why. I miss PN and i'm really worried to core about that baby boy of mine. Because of ego, i think, i still hates him though i don't. My life would suck without you PN. My life had been bend into a question mark. I suck. =(. I tortured his feelings all these times and claimed that he's the one yg torture me, fuck ehh! Is this love? Every single ticks of seconds just aches like thousands of needles poking through my soft heart, that is without him. Yeah! I did tried to ignore him and hate him but that just seem worthless, he's just like a magnet, i miss him more i'm nearly insane!! Now i agreed, OPPOSITE ATTRACTS. When will i stop being an ego maniac like this?! My heart aches, really, to deny my love towards him, i'm sick of it. Raffez? Yes, i cared for him. But love? He just had to wait. And so he said he would, we support each other, academics and social. He's the nicest guy on earth. BUT PN had stolen my heart and won't give it back just like he refused to take his heart back from me. I love you PN, but i hate you. I hate that i love you! Btw, talked to teacher aireen today, about further studies and so. It kinda injected a new resolution to me, i'm going to be a doctor or a CSI! I will! Siuk bah dengar her talks tadi, about her loving bio and so. Hmmm. Mrs.B wrote us all some advice tadi, mine was 'please be regular with your work, you have the potential to do well'. I'm proud of it. Wani cried tah plang, haha. Took some pictures today and i liked them. The photos from the other day were also awesome. Too bad i can't join the afternoon photoshoot. *sigh. But anyway, i'll be hanging out with anne this saturday night. The Mall. Gee hee. Later.